For here are my tears
not for any of you, but for all to see
I got used to being bare, to show way more than I should
or could, being honest
The things I'm missing the most, grasping for straws
on whatever bytes, whatever resemblance of connection
for here, beside my tears
lie my naked heart
My courage, was yet again
met with silence, and disdain
My whole world, for a direct and simple no
a reason, a phrase, a why
but please, take me away from this silence
that pierces my mind, and deafens my soul
I'm building sandcastles
with all my might. My whole being
I'm trying, again and again
I'm choosing to do this, to hurt myself, to step forward
again and again
And reason is, yet again
doubling down, laughing
how can one be so gullible, hopeful
I am so hurt
I feel too much
Each day, I'm coming to terms
maybe, love was really not for me, after all
I'm one of those, really, really unlovable
on pure face value, not a word out of my mouth, not a definition read by my fingers
worthless, at face value
It's the funniest thing
I don't know anything about you
but I am perfectly sure
you should be gone
