But why?

 Why should I keep on living, after all?

Is it really worth it, this pain

and dare I say, not all this pain, but all the thorns surrounding it

why should I miss you when you cant remember me?

why should I suffer, all of this myself, in the name of someone who cant even name me in a crowd

how can I be so little, when before I was a whole planet

how can I be nothing in your eyes

they used to shine, for me

for me, and I dare never forget that

I'm still going

somehow, someway

contradicting all predictions and all eyes

I'm still living

no reason why. Just a day after another, week after week, hour after hour

I still cry, sometimes

but not for you, now

for me. for how scared I am of moving on

how broken I feel, when I take another step

all the glass that seeps in my, still missing, heart

I'm still here

Even if it is for nothing

even if it hurts every step of the way

even if I dare forget you, one day

I'm trying to smile and still moving forward

one day, again

I'll see me up there, not you