Broken Glass Door

  "As death approaches, I want to make it clear that this was my decision. Sane mind. Of my own volition. I wanted this. Not directly, but know that I did absolutely nothing to stop or delay it. I egged it on, cheered it, hoped for it. Know it was me. I did it. My destined death."

Eu aprendi errado. Eu devia ter aproveitado antes, me jogado, mas minha coragem é tardia, fruto do meu cansaço. O que eu faço é menos baseado na vontade, mais na sobrevivência. Um esforço medido na segurança, e não na possibilidade. Eu nunca colei meus pedaços.

Leash is not tight at all

I've already escaped

I finally lost it

I could assume where it was

Before

Yesterday

A lifetime ago

Now I have no idea where it could be

Did I misplace it? Was it stolen?

Could I have destroyed it?

It wasn't making sounds anyway

Just glad you won't be able to see it

maybe we could share yours

I'd burn so many bridges for you

Unfortunately I'll never have fire again 

I'll try to get close and you'll freeze away

Anyway

I looked up for a moment

Could see nothing

The blackness threw me off for a bit

Then I felt you removing the knife

Your laughter made me remember what had happened

I sent you off with a smirk

You kissed me goodbye and left forever

Next time, don't miss the vital parts

Please

I was heaven bound

An arrow, speed and intent

You were thunder

loud and inevitable

shot me down and maimed me

leering at this beautiful sky, ever so distant

getting so far, so fast

my tears just fall faster than I do

this one is a new feeling, yeah

rhythm is fine

melody is just a bit off

its pulsating just as its supposed to

its timbre's good too

but how do you make it sound so empty

never heard a heart so hollow before

I did a thing

I'm scared of the thing

it may end me

I did because I thought I was dead

But what if not

what if the dreams are dark premonitions of 

more suffering yet to come

the thing is silent

thing is hungry

I wish I could show you

All these blinding lights, on a sunless sky

Maybe I could share with you from inside my deaf mind

Would you like to see

What I can't explain

Would you like me

If I made you understand

My one and only

Queen of hearts

Tô indo; não sei se volto, se volto não sei se o mesmo, se mudado, tomara que não tão pior do q fui. Viva o fim do mundo

Lost in translation

Its 3am, again 🤡

May your fears rest forever in rage

I dreamt of absurd alien spaces

Infinite shores with no water

Giant grey metal masses

Impossible interactions

An evil beautiful smile

A naked back

Woke up and cursed a thousand moons

If you knew how much that hurt

would you prefer I lied? Even though we'd both die

false as faith

I'm lying to survive, won't wish this carnage upon you

why do you bring it to me anyway?

your hug is just needles

bone deep

on this hollow smile, again

night take you, I won't

I was assigned to mourn someone that no one will miss. My sadness knows no bounds and my tears overflow this grievous well. I hope you get peace.

Bothered. Coarse. Sad. In the slow lane. Unfocused. Unprosperous.

Não tem jeito, por mais que você tente ou queira, algumas pessoas simplesmente estão ocas por dentro. 

Alma, coração, humanidade, nada. 

Vazio total.

Eu nem tento entender, o abismo é um sedutor inigualável. Considero sorte demais ter um fiozinho me segurando.

the rain shall stop me

surely

water will wash away this sins and filth

it can't keep going like this

i just have to accelerate