It was not a nightmare

 I really don't think it was

I've been having nightmares for a super while

it got so stale, I almost had no reactions to it

just sadness and conformity

but then, something changed

Your cloud passed, I dare say

There was light

fullfilling, warm, bright light

I was filthy, with mud, salt, moondirt

But I was not limping on the desert, or the sea

I was walking forward, really walking

really moving

and I cried so much

I cried waterfalls

and the weight was dispersing

and I felt so relieved

so much relief

after some time, I was smiling

genuinely, which is almost absurd

what dimension is this

I woke with tears on my face

the taste in my mouth

but my heart was beating so strongly

I finally think I found it

it came back

and I laughed until I slept again

I will dare hope and will dare dream

It seems I still had some coins hidden 

in the back pocket